Tired

Yeah yeah... i shouldn't be blogging now... but i'm tired... my computer desktop is almost full of files already... and my physical desktop has the same fate... can time just stop for a while so i can clean up my mess... and decide first what i really really wanna do???

I've been bloghopping for the past thirty minutes or so... been to my friends' sites... two of them are out of the country now... one in the States and the other in China... and reading through their blogs made me realize how sad it is to be far away from home...

My plans in life... well one of them is to leave the country... for financial reasons... not that my needs aren't well provided for but I just want to be independent... to make a living of my own... on my own... I just wanna try how it is to live alone... My own rules... My own ways... Not that I'm the 'naughty girl' type... but sometimes it gets tiring to have to ask permission from my mom everytime I wanna go out... Not that she wouldn't let me... But she always had to know what time I'll be goin home... I understand her concerns but well... I think I'm just not that used to her being around...

Ok so I wanna leave... Singapore maybe? Since it's not as hard to get there as it is to go to the US... But then again, reading my friends' blogs made me reconsider... Can I really make it on my own??? Can I stand the loneliness and alienation they've been having lately? I'll miss my family terribly... My boss-my Atchie that I really look up to, my Mom who I dearly love (despite her being overprotective at times) my little angels... Francine, JR, Andee and Frankee... and now Daneil... and my friends... who'd always been there for me... and him... who'd been ever so patient towards me...

Then it hits you... Life is indeed too short... To do everything you want to... So right now, I'll just do what makes me happy where I am... Cherishing every moment I spend with people who matter... My little angels' simple joys and laughters, my friends endless hirits... and the warmth of having my family just where I need them to be... =)