a morning for mourning

Last night, I heard her...
whimpering in pain...
I tried to comfort her...
gave her a pain reliever...
told her it'll be okay...
she'll be okay...
that I love her...
but when I felt her I saw that she was turning like stone...
Hard.
then i began to think that this might be her last night...
i tried to push the thoughts away and told her to sleep...
can't bear to give her a last goodnight kiss though...
it already hurt me so much to see her suffer...
and see her struggle as she tried with all her strength to pull herself up...
probably to walk me up one last time.

I prayed...
that if He willed to take her soon He better take her now...
so she won't endure more suffering...
but if He willed to give her breath for a longer time...
Then heal her of the pain she's having...

Then she went.

Yet memories of more than fifteen years of being with her will linger...
And stay.